December 2nd

Judging by the title and blurbs on the back, I assumed that this is a witty and funny sci-fi book, maybe something in a Douglas Adams style.

It is not.

It is a deeply profound book about a search for something — a family, an understanding, courage, closure…

December 1st

And my need for it. I need sunshine; I need sun rays; I need to feel the soft sunlight warming my skin — especially in winter months. The last couple of weeks were typical for November weather — rain, sleet, snow, completely overcast sky. Days are already short…

November 30th

If that was a competition, I would be one of the very best. Of course, if that was a REAL competition I would find a way to avoid any participation in it since that could perchance cause me discomfort. And possibly that way — avoiding discomfort to win…

November 29th

I wonder if I would calculate all the time in my life when I was comfortable or in discomfort — what would be the result? I know that most of my timeline would be this thick line of a grayish miasma of just being. Just being between comfort…

November 28th

Truly, I can only appreciate how important and fragile is my health after a medical scare. After four days of severe abdominal pain, diarrhea, dehydration, two visits to a doctor, numerous medical tests, and a 12-hour stay in the ER — today I finally feel ok, weak but…

November 26th

I have to take a break from blogging. I’ve been seriously sick for the last three days — acute stomach pain and diarrhea. I haven't been able to eat solid foods for three days, and I feel very weak. I am going to yet another doctor in an hour to see if she can diagnose what is going on.

The pain is around my pancreatic area, and I am scared.

November 23rd

Rather unexpectedly, this morning I woke up to the first snow of the season. In the forecast, there was only a call for rain, but I guess temperature around zero was enough for the snowfall. …

November 22nd

I just spent 20 minutes debating in my head if I should title today’s post “Quietness” or “Silence”. What is the exact difference between those two words? …

November 21st

I’ve been toying with that idea for a while. Of course, I don’t (cannot) make any rash decisions, so I needed time to analyze and think it through. This is another part of self-care for me, and let start from the beginning —

I never liked to waste…

November 20th

Today I spent 3.5 hours in a meeting with 26 people. Normally, a thing like that would drive me crazy, and I would do all I could to avoid it. Not for this meeting, though. We were sitting in a circle talking and some of those people were…

footsteps of the Furies

“for they knew what sort of noise it was; they recognize, by now, the footsteps of the Furies”. Maciej — on the road to recovery.

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