Almost there…

April 25th, 2023

I am beyond thinking about and aiming at so-called dream job. Yes, I am that jaded already. I want to have a job where I go every day, do my eight hours without much stress, nervousness, aggression, and arrogance from others — and then go home without as much as a single thought about it after I clock out. Of course, from my side, I will do this job professionally and thoroughly, and well in all expected aspects.

That is not much, really. And yet it is difficult to find a job that would fit even that expected minimum. Of course, if I agreed to work for peanuts — I would be swamped with offers. But I need more than peanuts for sustenance. I guess everybody does — that is the main reason for looking for a better job or just a different job. Or sometimes it is just a need for a change of environment, of sameness that leads to boredom.

Now, today I am almost there — there are still some details to iron out, some documents to sign, and some plans to agree on. But I have an offer on the table and by tomorrow afternoon I expect it to be finalized. What is strange — I feel happy and proud, but not so much as I would expect. What I feel the most is the calmness and resolve. I guess that is the part of me growing up and getting more mature about things and emotions. And that feels really good.