April 30th

I don’t know what to write about today. I’ve noticed that over the last couple of days I have more and more problems finding interesting topics —to think about and to write about. Nothing really stands out for me this week. I guess it’s the new normalcy for me. I mean, there are things going around me, but I just don’t see them as important enough to write about them. And I don’t know if that is a good thing. Possibly I am overthinking it (as I tend to do). Maybe the fact that I find difficult to write is completely normal and happens to everybody? I wrote an entry a day for little over six months now — a short break might be needed. On the other hand, I decided to keep writing after my inpatient therapy stay, that helped me a lot during difficult days, during crises I had along the way. Could be that I am suffering from the spring fatigue— my mind and body are tired after long and hard winter, they crave sun and warmth and vitamins, but the weather is changing from day to day, hell — from hour to hour even. Also, I try to do a lot of things I couldn’t do in winter and am possibly overdoing it. So, I will take it easy, I will still write something every day and I will work on my mental and physical stamina in the upcoming days.