At the Doctor’s

September 21st

First time in the medical office of my family doctor in years. I have supplemental medical insurance through work and whenever I needed to see a doctor or a specialist or do lab work I would just set an appointment online and be in and out in 15 minutes. Now, even though I had an appointment set up, there is a delay of over 90 minutes…

I have another appointment set through my supplemental insurance for tomorrow morning, but I want to start my checkups on two tracks and see how they go and which way is faster. So I am here now to see my old family doctor I haven’t seen in 5 or 6 years. And I have plenty of time just to sit, think and write.

And I just realized how my attitude has changed over last year. Previously, a delay like this would make me angry and frustrated, and I would sulk and steam and curse inside. Now, I am mostly amused. It happens, I have no control over what is happening here. There is no point in getting angry, it will not change anything, and it will not help me in any way. What I can do is to find a way to occupy myself, do something productive (like writing this post), and keep my head up. Another good change and a positive step in my behavior as a sober person.