August 14th
Quick reflection for today:
Since I stopped drinking and started my addiction therapy, I gained and achieved a lot of good things:
- my self-confidence
- my self-respect
- my self-reflection
- respect of others
- a new perspective on my life and my mind
- ability to examine my actions, thoughts, and emotions
- tools to control my actions, thoughts, and emotions
- better health
- the curiosity of my internal life and the outside world
- happiness
- peace of mind
- etc.
But I also realized yesterday that I gained something else, and quite an important thing: a whole day per week. That’s right — an extra day per week since I don’t drink, I am talking about Sundays. During my drinking days, Sunday was the most terrible and terrifying day of a week — I had to regain enough mental and physical strength to face another week, go to work, and simply exist after another week and weekend of drinking. Those Sundays were associated only with hangovers, headaches, filthy beds, dirty clothes, sweaty bedsheets, self-pity, self-hate, and self-destructive thoughts. Not anymore! It became a normal day when I can rest or be active as I please. No more hours of lying in bed in haze and stupor. It’s my day now — I can do whatever I choose to, or nothing if I choose that. A whole extra day per week for me! No more trembling in fear for the upcoming week. 24 extra hours of my time! Amazing! It’s the things like this that give me extra motivation and strength to keep up my recovery. That is also a new perspective of how much I gained in my sobriety.
