September 2nd

About a year ago (plus/minus a couple of days) I made a conscious decision to radically change my life. I admitted my powerlessness against alcohol and decided I need therapy to be able to quit my addiction and regain control over my life. It wasn’t an easy decision and it wasn’t an easy year, it was rather extremely difficult at times but I managed it and now I enjoy a different quality of life and freedom to a degree I never thought would be possible. Now, I have another decision to make — and I want to make it in the next several days — I want to quit my job without anything new lined up. Not only that, but I want to give up on working in a corporate environment anymore. I simply cannot take it anymore — not only here in my current job but overall with corporate culture. My life, my health, my mind (especially my peace of mind) are more important than a steady job, recognition from peers, and comfortable and stable income — because with that comes chaotic pointless pressure, nervousness, infighting, anger (even rage), humiliation from those higher in a hierarchy and mental burnout and physical exhaustion.
I know it won’t be easy, I might struggle for a while but this decision needs to be made. I postponed my decision about therapy for years because I was scared, mostly of the unknown concept of sober me. I don’t want to waste time this time. I am not afraid of a change and I feel strong enough to face it and make it work. I am not afraid this time.