August 5th

I am getting an itch, stronger and stronger every day. Not the physical itch of course, but this harder to define, internal need to do something else or do something differently. It’s been coming for some time now and I feel that there is a huge change that awaits me very soon. I had a lot of life-changing changes in my life but there were mostly pushed on me by external circumstances caused by my (mostly stupid and self-destructive) actions. I had no time to prepare for those changes in any way, and usually, my life had become harder and more difficult after I had no choice but to accept those situations. Not this time — after all the changes in my life over last year (changes that were my choice), I feel that I am ready for another challenge. Obviously, I want to be cautious about it. The current situation with a pandemic is getting better, I am vaccinated, more and more countries are opening and it seems that life might go back to normal. On the other hand, the economic situation is still very volatile with global shortages in the supply chain (of almost everything), huge delays and price increases in international transport, the inflation and price speculation rampant everywhere. I am too comfortable in my life and with my everyday needs to risk any potential losses. I want to proceed with caution — if I will need to spend money I have to be sure of some kind of return. So that’s how I see that coming change from a technical standpoint, as for the change itself –

I want to move somewhere else to live and work, for 3 to 5 years before returning back to where I live. I think I am at the right age to still try this change where I would uproot myself from a sedentary lifestyle to start my life anew. I thought about other cities and regions in Poland but (unless I find an opportunity that I simply cannot pass over), this itch is pushing me not necessarily farther but towards different cultures, different countries, different languages. I would just LOVE to move to London (or surrounding areas) for several years, unfortunately UK is now in complete shambles because of the combination of Brexit, Covid, and sheer incompetence and lunacy of their ruling class — so that is no longer an option for me. Ireland is a very strong possibility, as also Sweden/Finland/ Denmark. Those are clearly top destinations for potential emigrants like me (and I will not use the term “expatriate” which is used by white, privileged people who don’t like to call themselves immigrants. But there are some other options as well — Estonia, Chechia, Slovakia, Slovenia, maybe even Spain or Luxemburg? I am getting very close to starting that new journey, I want this upcoming change very badly. I think I might actually need it.