Conformity and convictions

July 22nd, 2023

Too many or not enough— convictions that is. That is the problem. That is what leads to the decomposition of the fabric of the singular being and of society at large. Having too many convictions, letting yourself have doubt about the validity of the said convictions and understanding the need to accept the convictions of others leads to dilution of meaning with fluidity of values as they fit the particular view. Having only a few convictions (or rather the only one as happens most often) leads to the solidification of meaning without any room for doubt and wiggling beyond the dogma.

Lack of balance — that is what I want to say. Not only in this case, but in life and living and opinions and ideas in general.

Convictions can come only from finding the source of meaning. And the sources are usually hidden behind the unapproachable remoteness of the obscurity of the truth. Or of the symbolism of the meaning. It seems to me that we as people are separated from the source of the meaning of our convictions (and ideas) by the vast remoteness of the wastelands of intellectual poverty and hysteria of modern consciousness. And in the wastelands, there are no directions, no signposts for reaching the source. That is the reason for our constant attempts for overcompensation when faced with a separation of thought and meaning and action. But there is one thing in common between both poles of human experience — from too many to not enough convictions — anxiety. That trembling unsureness that is kept hidden from the view (and by extension from judgment) of others but mostly from our own consciousness. The loss of meaning, or rather the loss of direction for the source of meaning, leads to despair. But it doesn't have to — the courage that is our ingrained gift can be used either for acceptance of the current situation or for embarking on a voyage across the wastelands in search of meaning.