December 12th

I feel very tired, I had a lot to do today. Shopping as always on Saturday, twice — a lot for mom and second time for myself. I cleaned my house, went to Mom's, installed a bird feeder for winter (wasn't easy as the ground is already semi-frozen. Got all Christmas ornaments from the attic in the outhouse, put Christmas lights on a tree in the front yard — and it was freezing with some sleet. I couldn't turn on all the lights as I didn't have the right extension cord with a splitter and while using the old one I blow the fuse in the house… Everything is back to normal now, I ordered a new extension cord for pick up tomorrow so on Sunday I will see how it looks. Mom and Bozena are constantly bickering, Adam seems to have enough of being there — being constantly questioned and put down by mom and Bozena — I don't like this situation, I don't know if that can affect my recovery but it won’t help for sure. I don't know if I should talk to them about it but I am afraid it will lead to a huge fight and them being offended…There is a story about the package that was sent to Agnieszka that was damaged by InPost — I don't see it as a big deal but apparently it is for Bozena and Mom, it is getting tiresome.

But in spite of all that I feel very good about myself and where and how I am right now. I did a lot of necessary work today, I feel tired but it’s satisfying tiredness. I had a lot of energy all day, I feel at ease with myself and my moods and emotions — I look at myself and take care of myself first, all other things, as annoying as they might be, are a distant second. Now for a reward for today, I will listen to some good music — SOBER and HAPPY!

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“for they knew what sort of noise it was; they recognize, by now, the footsteps of the Furies”. Enjoying life on the road to recovery. Observing and writing.

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