December 23rd

I knew it was going to happen. That thing that started yesterday with an unexpected delivery from my supplier. My boss made it into a huge story and a big problem. She was supposed to be on vacation today, but she already called me 7:00 AM about it. The problem was resolved maybe not the way we wanted to, but it was the best possible way to resolve it in the last couple of days before Christmas. And when I called her to tell her what’s going on she found another thing to latch on against me. I supposedly made a mistake with a talking so people in the warehouse about delivery from my supplier, and in her mind it was supposed to be a big problem, especially with inventory coming up. She actually raised her voice and I got very angry when she finished, I threw my phone oat the wall. She finds the way, either before the weekend or a long weekend or before time off to find something and put someone down because of this thing. It’s almost like a clockwork, she will not let somebody enjoy time off if she doesn’t enjoy it. I guess she cannot live without work, so with her toxic personality she makes time off awful for everyone else. I was also disappointed in myself because I knew what was coming and still I let myself be winded up by it. I felt real anger after the talking to her and I told myself about all this time when I was still drinking that that was a perfect excuse for me, I felt wronged, so I could go and drink with a clear mind. Not this time, I knew it will not happen although there was a moment that I was basically shaking with fury. What really helped me was talking to my colleagues, I called Krzysiek and then Zbyszek. I told them exactly what happened, I told them what I felt with this situation with our boss. They feel the same way and I felt much better after talking to them. I cannot let my boss to affect my life this way, she’s at best bipolar, or maybe she’s just a bitch. Anyway I don’t want to dwell on that, I want to enjoy my time off. I feel fine, and I feel strong that I didn’t give into temptation. I know things like that will happen in the future, but I cannot control my boss and what she does and what she thinks. I need to be ready, today just talking to the guys helped me a lot. Now for the next 11 days when I have time off, I don’t want to think about work anymore, I turned off my cell phone from work, so I’m not even tempted to check my emails. That is it, I don’t want to talk about and think about work until I have to go back on 4th of January.

In the evening I went to see mom, today was Bozena’s birthday. Traditionally we had pizza, like we do for her birthdays for the last many years. Adam and Mateusz were there, and we had a quite a pleasurable time. There is still a little nervousness before Christmas, but I believe it will be fine. Everything is ready all the food and all the gifts. I don’t expect to have a lot of fun, but I do expect normalcy.