Downshifting

September 18th, 2024

Around midday, I felt that I might need to leave the office and go home to lie down. And I might lie down like that — without doing anything — for a while, at least for a few days. For some reason, I didn't. Instead, I slowed down. I downshifted everything I was doing and my natural habits as well. Everything I was doing was deliberate. Every move, every step, every word spoken or typed, every response, every interaction. I felt like I was doing it all in slow motion. And that was a deliberate and informed choice. There was nothing too pressing for me to get right to it. Well, I mean — there were plenty of things like that that required my immediate attention, but I decided to finish what I was already doing, then to do what I already planned to do, and only then to get to a new problem. Slowly and steadily. Even when going to the bathroom, I would measure my steps and make each one without hurry and with no pace. Having lunch was the same — I ate deliberately and properly, without doing anything except concentrating on the sandwich I was eating. It was a good sandwich. I made another one just like that after finally getting home in the afternoon. Looks delicious and is waiting for me in the kitchen. And I am going to stop what I am doing and will eat it, and then I will put my feet up. Then I might do something, or I might do nothing. Will see…