January 22nd

First Friday when I don’t have a crisis and a craving. I finished my work week on the high note — I will start Monday with a clean slate, I know there will be a lot to do, but I can enjoy my weekend now. I feel happy, energetic and powerful.

Several points from my therapy session with Ada -

I felt embarrassed talking with my great aunt about my addiction because at her age I should be offering to help her and not accepting her offer of help for me.

I think about going back to New Jersey not exactly because I haven’t finished something but because I simply miss it and considering that I had a very nice and comfortable life there while drinking, now without drinking I can accomplish so much more.

I need to watch my relationship with my boss carefully, I don’t need to explain to myself her actions, when needed — I need to set boundaries and be assertive.

I deserve my life, I don’t need to be apologetic about anything. I might feel a little like I don’t really deserve it but now — sober — I can do so much for myself and others with what I have.