I can still dream.
I didn’t lose this ability, I never gave up on still having dreams even though my life was in shambles.
And now, I can see that some of my dreams can be achieved. Of course not all of them — I don’t think I will ever see world peace, nor will I see the end of exploitation of people by other people and corporations, nor will I see a triumph of reason and end of religiousness in my lifetime.
But my dreams — I want to buy a house on the outskirt of a village either within 25 km from Bialystok in Knyszyn Forest:
or somewhere between Augustów and Suwałki in Augustow Forest:
or somewhere around Siemianowka Reservoir:
House can be old, I can do renovations myself (for the most part). There has to be a garden and a yard for me (2000–3000 m2 will do fine) to plant vegetables and flowers. It has to be within a couple of kilometers from the main, asphalt road. A city or a town with stores and medical facilities has to be within 30 minutes drive. Preferably there shouldn’t be many tourist accommodations around.
Looking around for real estate listings at those parameters, there are plenty of properties like that available at the reasonable prices for my wallet. I can actually do it. I mean, I can actually realize my dream. It won’t happen within the next couple of years, but I stay on the path I am on now, if I stay sober this is doable! What more motivation do I need? A long term goal, let say to achieve this in the next 10 years, to keep my mind occupied. I can do it, it’s within my abilities mostly from financial standpoint. Yep, that something for me to work on as my reward for old age.