March 20th

Well, the calendar/astronomical spring is here. Spring equinox was today. I think I should be celebrating that. I’ve been waiting for winter to end since the beginning of January — when deep cold and deep snow started.

The Sun was shining today, there is (almost) no snow on the ground anymore. And yet, it was windy and bitterly cold, going home after visit to moms I was shivering even though I had my winter jacket on with a wooly hat and gloves.

I know it’s an important symbol, like we should be celebrating or something… I don’t think people pay attention to yearly astronomical milestones anymore. Even I almost forgot, some guy was talking to another guy on the street about it and that’s how I remember it.

I think I should be celebrating, it was a very difficult winter for me, with my sobriety and not drinking anymore, you know that stuff that I might have mentioned once or twice on here, he he.

Well, even though I had several crises along the way, I did not drink, I was able to keep my sobriety. A couple of times I felt like giving up, but I persevered. Now looking at where I am now — it was all worth it. I am in the process of changing jobs (with a very nice rise expected). Today I bought a car (used, but in a great condition) — will be able to change my transportation means. I finally got my (Polish) driving license (no more using American one). For almost three months I’ve been learning Spanish — not giving up here, I enjoy it and feel getting better and better. For almost five months I kept writing this blog — again, not giving up with that — I like it, and I am more and more comfortable doing that, it’s also a great practice for writing of my future book. I became a better person — I am able to think about my actions and my emotions and react accordingly. I love my family and I can see they love me as well. And I learned to like my sober myself a lot more.

Of course there are things that didn’t go according to the plan, things that were unexpected and things that I was too blind (and possibly too thick) to see before they became a problem — but I won’t discuss it now. I am in a very good mood and I expect more good things to come to fruition next week.