November 12th

A first full day of work in 10 weeks albeit as work from home. I am surprised how quickly I was able to get back into the everyday grind. I did full 9 hours of work and I feel proud that I was able to almost catch up on my backlog. Almost — there are a lot of details that I need to take care of, a lot of problems will come up in the next days or weeks. Again quickly I realized that I hate my job and my boss is an angry, insecure person — nothing changed and never will. My coworkers are similar, they are timid, uncertain, and lacking self-confidence. I was just the same but it’s about to change, I am not arrogant but I feel strong and confident and will try to stand my ground and I won’t let be pushed around.

After work a walk and diner, I had time to watch the movie “Europa Report” — very good, I like a lot psycho sci-fi thrillers like this. Another day when I felt emotionally stable, had no cravings, slept well and I feel a sense of accomplishment in my new, sober life. Life is good and I feel well in my recovery.