December 3rd

Two important things to analyze today — my work, again I see I am falling into the same habits as before — I losing my assertiveness and let myself be overwhelmed by the sheer amount of things to do. I don't react quickly enough to what is happening around me even though afterward my sober consciousness tells me exactly what happened and how I should react. I need to be aware of my mind and body and react accordingly. If I need a break I should take a break, if I cannot do this immediately I shouldn't feel bad about postponing it for some other time. I need to be constantly aware of myself and my thoughts and emotions.

Second — I really need to take it easy. I already accomplished a lot in a very short time, not everything can and will happen at once. I should keep my emotions stable, don't feel too full of myself, and allowing myself to feel down. Real crisis will come sooner or later, I need to be ready.

Those two points are must important from today's therapy session with Ada, this time through Skype, next week again in person in Sokółka.