October 25th
I visited this cemetery today as I was allowed an unsupervised walk into town. I am in Sokółka at an inpatient addiction rehab facility for alcohol, been here for 7 weeks, one more week here before I will go home. As an introduction I should say I am an alcohol dependent or in simpler terms — am an alcoholic, been for many years, finally decided to seek help because the only other option was suicide and somehow I still wanted to live. I will write here something about my dependency and recovery and everything else every day. Being in this facility I re-discovered my love for writing, will try to keep it going as I see that writing helps me a lot. Mostly, in the beginning, I will write something about my day, my feelings, and my mood. What is happening in my mind and life as I try to put my life back together.
My day, Sunday 25th of October, was just lovely, no unpleasant feelings today, no sharp mood changes — I am quite happy that this was the case for the last several days. I was a mess, a completely shattered human being when I arrived here seeking help. Change in me, in the way I think and feel and react is absolutely amazing — I will talk about it in future posts.
The weather was surprisingly mild today — around 15C and sunny and walk around Sokółka was a pleasure. I decided to go and visit an old and abandoned Jewish cemetery here, I was here previously several years ago but as I was drunk most of the time for years I don't remember much about it. There is an old section of the cemetery that I didn't visit today, I will try to do it this week and take some photos. I had a plan years ago to visit Jewish cemeteries around Podlasie and actually have been to quite a few — Białystok, Bielsk Podlaski, Choroszcz, Tykocin, Suraż, Augustów, Krynki but there are so many more. That might be a plan for future weekends to see more of those cemeteries, whole list is in here — http://cmentarze-zydowskie.pl/fotogalerie.htm
