October 28th

Group topic — “Codependency” — I feel curiosity, this is not a subject that I know a lot of, or think about often. After a discussion of all the habits of codependency, it becomes clear that my marriage was not codependent on my addiction. Codependency was, on the other hand, a part of my childhood — my mom, me, and my siblings were codependent on my alcoholic father and we just continued codependency of my grandma toward alcoholic grandfather. I feel frustrated that for some generations of my family the same bad habits and codependency repeat itself. I will have to work on this by continuing my therapy after leaving my current facility, I will try to talk to my mom and siblings as well — some therapy might be needed by them.

After dinner a shopping trip and then work in the garden, I feel enthusiastic even though this is hard and dirty work, I feel a surge of energy.

After individual therapy with Ada, I feel peaceful, during our talk we were able to settle a few things and close some subjects that were bothering me with regards to my therapy, I feel satisfaction and relief that those things were solved.

In the evening my mood was stable, I have time for my work and thoughts, I feel positive, and even though there is some nagging anxiety, I feel excited because I am almost done with my therapy.