October

October 5th

Of all my favorite months of the year (and since I stopped drinking I have 12 of them), I think October is the most favorite. This is now more than a full year since I stopped drinking, and I get to experience all the season anew. Every day, every weather change brings a smile on my face — how much more real and true is this experience, how much more I can feel it physically in a clear and sober mind! And in October the weather is crisp but still sunny, and days get quite warm in the midday sun. There could be occasional rain, but it is only a welcome change for me and something sorely needed by nature. Days are getting shorter, it is still dark when I get up, but I don’t mind. This same for the afternoons — even though the sun sets earlier, I get to experience spectacular sunsets. I feel well-prepared for upcoming months — physically, mentally, and emotionally. My professional life is in order, my private life is going along nicely. I feel growing and learning every day in a way I never expected. Even setbacks are only temporary — and I use them as a learning experience. I have plans for next months but nothing set in stone, if there is a need I can easily accept changes and go in a different direction. My list of books to read and movies to watch on long Autumn afternoons and evenings is getting longer every week. But still, I don’t have the need to rush and try to do everything at once. Actually, I feel I don’t need (and don’t want to) to rush anything in my life. For once, I have plenty of time for everything that is happening with and around me. This is simply the most amazing feeling — to be able to slow down and enjoy every passing hour and every passing day is a gift. A gift from me to myself. And a gift I deserve and the happiness I accept.