Off day(s)

March 30th, 2023

Some days are off, off-kilter, off-reason, off-sunshine, off-happiness, off-everything — except the weight. The weight is real and by its placement right inside the head, it restricts the movement of the body and the flow of thoughts. That weight of something overwhelming and beyond rationality.

Everything seems to be off, especially off the scale — with little things becoming insurmountable obstacles and big problems seemingly beyond mere human comprehension and so they are left without action or resolution or even a glance upward to see their depth.

I need to learn how to turn off days into days off — off for the mind and body and mood and emotions. And for the sake of sanity — mine and others around me. I want to learn how to get rest from myself when the black and suffocating off days are upon me. I will not let them bring me down.