Pleasant tiredness

September 24th, 2024

They mean well, I kept telling myself. They — my managers (and I don't have just one but several…). I am in the middle of a business trip and after getting up before 6 am I am only now back at my hotel room when it is close to 10 pm. And the long day was filled with driving, meetings, talking, some entertainment, and good food. And good company, I have to say that. I finally met some people I only knew from emails or Teams meetings in person, which was nice. I had some good conversations and overall it was a nice day. Tiresome, but nice. I also found out some things about myself that I want to think about further. But those things were also nice. Yet, I couldn't help noticing that for the whole day, I wasn't in control of my time and my personal need to be alone and just to be by myself. I got nice and interesting things in return, but still, some discomfort remains in me. As I said — they meant well, but that is not something I want to repeat more often. Unfortunately, I still have three more days like that before me, and then two more days like that in the middle of next week. I want to watch myself carefully and be aware of my reactions and my emotional state during that time.