I just spent 20 minutes debating in my head if I should title today’s post “Quietness” or “Silence”. What is the exact difference between those two words? I think that silence means total absence of sound, with quietness there is some small room for vague ambient sounds, so I went with this one.
For the last month or so, at work we are back at the hybrid schedule — every department is divided in half, and in turns, we work 5 days from home and 5 days in the office. Today and tomorrow I work from home and I already dread the fact that on Wednesday I will have to be back in the office. The difference is not only that I can work from home in my comfortable sweatpants and I don’t need to shave and waste time for the commute (all that is nice of course) but how amazing it is to be surrounded by quietness. I didn’t even put any music on today, I just don’t feel like any sound nearby would be necessary. There is a muffled hum of cars from the street, a clock is ticking, there is the sound of keys on the keyboard when I write. A while ago I could hear church bells, and the faraway ambulance or police siren. I can hear a dog a couple of houses over barking, and when I went out for a cigarette I could hear birds chirping around my birdfeeder.
I love it and I needed it. I function so much better without constant sharp and loud sounds. Mondays are usually very busy at work and today’s no different and yet, I am almost done with my work for today in just a little over 5hours. I feel very calm myself, my anxiety and nervousness are gone, I am content.
I simply don’t understand the need some people have to be constantly surrounded by sound and noise. Like they need to talk all the time or have a radio or TV on. Not to mention those assholes with loud mufflers pissing me off — I consider anyone with a very loud exhaust a worthless shit with no redeeming qualities.
Now, I don’t mind the noise the city makes, I am a city boy and understand that clamor and rumble are an unavoidable part of living here. I just don’t need and don’t want any unnecessary, look-at-me racket. And a day like today — at home, happy in my quietness, satisfied with my life is simply amazing.