September 1st

Obviously, for the last couple of days, I’ve been going through a crisis of some sort. I feel kind of disjointed, like I am pulling in several different directions at once. Not the first time since my recovery and I know it won’t be the last. It does get easier — I am more prepared for those crises and can stop myself and my thoughts and emotions from spiraling out of control. I can analyze what is going around me and in my head. Not always I can react as quickly as I would want to but I consider this a learning curve and an experience for the future. And now it’s back to a drawing board for me, and I will start with the basics:

• Make a list/plan for the next days and weeks
• Avoid situations and people that make me uncomfortable
• Take it easy, I don’t need to push myself to do anything
• Have time for myself and to relax
• I don’t need to do everything at the same time, I already have accomplished a lot in my recovery

I will still watch myself very carefully — my mood and emotional swings. I will not give up, I won’t lose my new quality of life and my sobriety.