To be wanted

September 29th

It is an amazing feeling to be wanted (not by law enforcement, of course, that is never a good thing). This is something new for me — to be wanted and to be needed by somebody else. It is a brand new and really great feeling, something that strokes my ego and helps a lot with my self-esteem. And especially I like my reaction to it — I don’t question what and why this is happening, I calmly accept it all at the face value. I deserve it, and I worked hard for this to be noticed and finally appreciated by others.

I turned in my resignation today and didn’t expect the reaction I got at all. My boss, her boss, and even the managing director all talked to me today, asking me what the company can do to keep me as an employee. Do I need more money? Maybe some extra perks like a company car? Maybe I would like to set my own hours and work from home more? Maybe I need an assistant to help me with all my tasks? Pretty good questions and a lot to choose from. I insisted that I want to turn the page and start something new in my life, but agreed to think it over and sleep on it, and have a talk with my bosses tomorrow.

So I guess, if I stay there it will be on my terms and by my choice and I will still fave an upper hand in all that — it is the management that buckled. Also, it was nice to hear all the nice words about me — how my work is appreciated by everybody (even if they don’t show it, I should surely know that), how I am able to handle all the most difficult tasks with calmness and resolve, how I am always ready to help others and accept new challenges. And the most important — how they don’t see internally anybody who can handle my work and that there is no possibility to hire somebody from the outside to teach what I do, and expect good results.

Well, I am pretty proud of myself now!

I don’t know what will I do tomorrow. I am not even sure if I want to open the dialog in that matter. Maybe I just thank them for all the offers and insist on keeping my resignation. Unexpected twists and a lot of options for me to weigh and consider for tonight.