True feelings

September 7th, 2023

I don’t like you.

You talk too much.

You don't have to please everybody.

I am not going to please you because I don’t want to.

You don't have to pretend to like me.

I am not going to pretend to like you.

You are wrong.

I will not be there for your every call.

I don’t care about your problem.

Don't keep up appearances for the sake of other people.

There are plenty of people I would like to say those words to. Not all of them to everybody, but each one would get one or two phrases. Of course, I won’t. I am too meek and too much of a coward and too polite and too well-behaved and well-adjusted to society's norms. So, no. I will keep quiet and pretend as if nothing bothers me and keep a fake smile and go along for the ride. There are things you simply don't say to other people since those words — true as they are — might hurt them. Only very young children and idiots can say what they mean right in the face of another person. And children can do it only for a short while, because they will be thought of and reign quickly to keep with established norms and lie behind the fake smile. The truth might come up eventually — in screaming and yelling and tears and violence. Then nothing could be done but to turn around and walk away. So, the truth is kept hidden from ever coming up in the conversation. The frustration grows and the other side is blissfully unaware. Life goes on and nothing positive comes from it. Society and relationship norms were upheld and that is what matters. Truth doesn’t.