March 31st, 2023 I strive to be good. To be good and productive and reliable and mostly to be perfect in my own eyes. Or is it really to be perfect in my eyes or to be perfect in reflection of myself in eyes of others? …

March 30th, 2023 Some days are off, off-kilter, off-reason, off-sunshine, off-happiness, off-everything — except the weight. The weight is real and by its placement right inside the head, it restricts the movement of the body and the flow of thoughts. That weight of something overwhelming and beyond rationality. Everything seems…

March 30th, 2023 I have a lot of desires, which on rational thinking over become only a figment of my dreams. Emphasis on rational — I know they will not come true and I can compartment them as no more than fantasies and exercises in imagination. …

March 28th, 2023 Of all the problems I have with the majority of main world religions, that might at the first glance seem insignificant, but in the long run, it could be the worst thing that came from artificially created dogmas in Christianity, Islam and Judaism, and other religions as…

March 27th, 2023 African Exodus: The Origins of Modern Humanity If you want to start a fight with a group of paleoanthropologists, propose a human family tree. The evidence is so…www.goodreads.com Yes, we are — we are all genetically related on an extremely close level. Skin color and facial features and hair type and eye color are just small nuances developed over a few hundred generations in response to localized climate and weather and topography and various natural…

March 26th, 2023 As a young and naive and wide-eyed fanatic of art, the discovery of paintings by Caravaggio was fundamental to my understanding of art. It was not just the brilliant chiaroscuro and in-your-face presentation of the subject matter, it was his anti-establishment life, full of crimes of passion…

March 25th, 2023 What is this in the photo above? Well, this is a big pile of wet leaves. And why is there? It is because I raked it there doing spring cleaning in the garden. And why is it wet? That is because it rained heavily last night. And…

March 24th, 2023 The warm feeling of pleasure and superiority and knowledge and understanding — that is a result of our escape into a mindless and depersonalized realm of ideas and doctrines fueled by mass and social media. The constant buzz gives content and fills the space (especially between the…

March 23rd, 2023 Our culture and politics have become at once universal and yet inaccessible to most of us. We are told we have an option of a democracy, and we are told and will of the majority is binding, but I no longer feel that my voice has any…